LIDGIRL

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I like tumblr because I can whine about my life and know one that I really know will read it.

Tommorrow is my birthday and I feel empty.

I am generally a happy person, and I attribute that to God showing me things in different perspectives. But sometimes I feel like nothing is real in my life. I feel irresponsible and ugly. Not in a physical way, but in a emotional kind of way. I now know why my parents don’t really have friends.

Friends kind of suck… I don’t know. I read too much into stuff and I hate getting hurt. I have too high standards in people and at the end of the day it just breaks me down.

I wish sometimes life would end. Like not in a suicidal way or anything, but i dont know like a huge ending….where it’s like…alrightly everyone it’s the end. Thanks for participating in this thing called life.

I have no clue why I am feeling like this, but it’s nice to get it out. I am probably going to feel 180 degrees different from this tomorrow or soon. That’s just to show you how are feeling  and what we “think” are fleeting and mistrustful.

I am glad I know a God who I can put my trust in. He is mighty and when things just don’t make sense I can talk to him, yell at him, cry at him, love him…and he just loves back. The world is nothing without Him. I am probably one of the most positive people and even I get like this sometimes. It’s only because of Christ I can face tomorrow. I can say that with my whole entire life. Life is worth the living. The life doesn’t just end with a ‘The End’ because it is meant to be more than that.

God is good…I am inconsistent, messy, and disorganized…HE is faithful and steadfast. My feelings may fail , but His love never fails.

Lonely.

Remember when there were people you could talk to?

Like they would pick up the phone to see how you were doing?

When they would KNOW something was wrong?

Space and time was not an issue?

Circumstances were nothing compared to the connection you had?

What happened to friendship?

it’s a trivial, unforgiving, mess nowadays….

I am weak

I am weak but He is strong

I am Lonely He his the one I cling to

I am nothing He is everything

I fail Healwayswins

I judge He gives mercy that passes all understanding

I cry He wipes every tear

I turn to no one He turns to me

I stumble He picks me up

… ALL I want to do is to know Him better.